Tuesday, June 17, 2014

My Brother's Keeper

This poem describes the struggle I had with losing a friend to suicide. The guilt, the heartache, the pain, the denial, and trying to find peace in the mist of it all. This is for you tyler. 


My Brother's Keeper
Cruising down highway 5, smiles and good times
This is supposed to be the time of my life

A text from my mom revealed societies stigmas crime

Tyler’s gone

He took his own life

Pure silence as tears flowed through my eyes
“What’s wrong” is everything alright?
Slowly uttering through my vocal chords I replied, Tyler died, he took
his own life 
I can’t believe it, a nightmare in real life
We talked yesterday and everything was okay
You were supposed to be at my graduation party, but you were grounded that day
My brother called, in attempt to get you to come
I wish you had left the house so I wouldn’t still be so numb
20 minutes later you succumbed to your mental pain
Since June 10th, life has never been the same
It’s all my fault, I should have picked you up that day
I should have made you slow down on the 24 highway
If you never got that speeding ticket, maybe you would have never been grounded
If I paid more attention and knew your dad was a cop
I could have pleaded with the officer to forget about the speeding stop
I saw you at school with your headphones in
Your face looked down as if you committed a pile of sins
I asked you what was wrong and you said everything is alright
Little did I know you were beginning to lose your mental fight
I wish we sat down and talked longer that day
I would have told you I’m here for you and it will all be okay
Having to bury you was the hardest thing I’ve done
For the longest time it was like I couldn’t see the sun
I would give up everything I have to talk for 5 minutes today
All I would tell you is everything is okay
Now 3 years have passed and I’m finally coming to peace
Your death was a blessing in disguise, something I never thought I’d see
You helped me deal with my past, and child abuses wrath
But most importantly, you taught me to be my brothers keeper.



Rest in Paradise. 



By: Blake Simons 
Copyright 2014 ©

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